Sunday, March 21, 2010
Craving For Macadamias
I want this!
Sold at amazon for $19
Ingredients
Semi-sweet Chocolate (Sugar, Chocolate, Cocoa Butter, Milk Fat, Soy Lecithin, Vanillin [Artificial Flavor] and Milk), Macadamia Nuts, Sugar, Contains 2% or less of: Confectionery Glaze, Dextrin, Corn Syrup, and Cornstarch.
Friday, March 12, 2010
Eclipse Official Trailer
After waiting for months after the showing of "New Moon," Twilight Saga's third installment, "Eclipse" comes out with a teaser. Release date is June 30, 2010.
Here is the movie's plot summary from imdb.com:
Bella and Edward have been reunited, but their forbidden relationship is threatened to be torn apart again with an evil vampire still seeking her revenge. And Bella is forced to choose between her true love for Edward or her friendship with Jacob Black as the struggles between vampires and werewolves continues. But there is still another choice for Bella to make, mortality or immortality? Written by Mel from the United Kingdom.
After the vote about her becoming immortal, Bella realizes graduation isn't too far away and starts to panic. But she has bigger problems arising, her feelings for Jacob, his feelings for her and Victoria. The vampire who is trying to take revenge on her for Edward killing her James. Written by Leslie Cullen
Here is the movie's plot summary from imdb.com:
Bella and Edward have been reunited, but their forbidden relationship is threatened to be torn apart again with an evil vampire still seeking her revenge. And Bella is forced to choose between her true love for Edward or her friendship with Jacob Black as the struggles between vampires and werewolves continues. But there is still another choice for Bella to make, mortality or immortality? Written by Mel from the United Kingdom.
After the vote about her becoming immortal, Bella realizes graduation isn't too far away and starts to panic. But she has bigger problems arising, her feelings for Jacob, his feelings for her and Victoria. The vampire who is trying to take revenge on her for Edward killing her James. Written by Leslie Cullen
Iron Man 2
Movie is set for release on May 7, 2010!
Synopsis: Paramount Pictures and Marvel Entertainment present the highly anticipated sequel to the blockbuster film based on the legendary Marvel Super Hero Iron Man, reuniting director Jon Favreau and Oscar® nominee Robert Downey Jr. In Iron Man 2, the world is aware that billionaire inventor Tony Stark (Robert Downey Jr.) is the armored Super Hero Iron Man. Under pressure from the government, the press and the public to share his technology with the military, Tony is unwilling to divulge the secrets behind the Iron Man armor because he fears the information will slip into the wrong hands. With Pepper Potts (Gwyneth Paltrow), and James Rhodey Rhodes (Don Cheadle) at his side, Tony forges new alliances and confronts powerful new forces.
Synopsis: Paramount Pictures and Marvel Entertainment present the highly anticipated sequel to the blockbuster film based on the legendary Marvel Super Hero Iron Man, reuniting director Jon Favreau and Oscar® nominee Robert Downey Jr. In Iron Man 2, the world is aware that billionaire inventor Tony Stark (Robert Downey Jr.) is the armored Super Hero Iron Man. Under pressure from the government, the press and the public to share his technology with the military, Tony is unwilling to divulge the secrets behind the Iron Man armor because he fears the information will slip into the wrong hands. With Pepper Potts (Gwyneth Paltrow), and James Rhodey Rhodes (Don Cheadle) at his side, Tony forges new alliances and confronts powerful new forces.
Friday, February 19, 2010
On Getting What You Want
I'm loving the sense of humor of Esther Hicks and how she gets the message across using that ability. Here's a video during one of her inspirational talks. I want to attend her workshops. And if it's not too much to ask, join one of their cruise ship seminars. That would be fab!
Saturday, February 06, 2010
MRMI Super Cash Special $1 Offer Extended Until Further Notice
January 28, 2010 WHITNEY, TX – In light of continued high unemployment rates and economic uncertainty, Stephen Pierce, CEO of Impulsive Profits, has announced that his MRMI Super Cash membership program will continue to be offered at $1 for a trial period of 30 days.
“I’m giving people the lowest barrier of entry possible so they can start making money instead of excuses,” says Pierce. “I don’t want anyone to be held back from achieving their dreams of financial freedom, even during a recession, because they can’t afford to pay for training.”
MRMI SuperCash is a program that gives members the materials, the education and ongoing training in how to make real money on the Internet. It is based on the same type of training Pierce gives his high end Fortune 500 coaching clients and other clients all over the world.
9000 Members and Counting
In just two years MRMI SuperCash has over 9,000 people to sign up. The $1 entry fee and reputation of Stephen Pierce have made his program a popular one. He also spent several months in 2009 traveling the country by bus to spread the word to everyone about how to make money online.
“Anyone can place an ad and promise the moon while they sell a fly by night online business program. But I have a proven reputation and the success of my members to back me up,” says Pierce.
SuperCash members have gone on to succeed in a wide variety of niches, from internet marketing, financial services, home business, sports, affiliate marketing and more. Stephen Pierce and his team help you find ways to make money in the areas that interest you. You can work full time or part time. You design your own hours.
By extending the $1 offer until further notice, Pierce hopes that by anyone who’s been thinking about starting an online business, growing their current business or just looking to make a few extra dollars a month will take that all important step to get started.
For more information visit THE MRMI SUPERCASH SITE
About Stephen Pierce
Stephen Pierce has been a celebrity in the internet marketing world the past ten years. He runs a highly successful business now, even though he was broke and homeless in the late 1990s. He has appeared on FOX News, NBC News, ABC News, CBS, DayTime, Daystar, ABC News Radio, Bloomberg Business Radio and other major network TV stations and cable shows radio programs. He also traveled around the world to explain to audiences how they, too, can make money from their homes on the internet they way Pierce has the past ten years.
Friday, February 05, 2010
New Look
It's a good thing I'm keeping this blog on a free platform because I don't have to feel guilty leaving it empty for a long time. I know it's going to be here when I come back for it, unlike self-hosted blogs that go phloof upon failure to renew.
I thought of giving this blog a new look using some free templates I found on the net. Pretty neat, huh? Browsed through my entries years ago and couldn't help laughing over my stream of thoughts. If my future children and grandchildren read those posts, I'm not sure if they'd be proud of me. But somehow my sense of humor was sharper back then.
I've been reading a lot of motivational videos these past few days, mostly applying the law of attraction. I've manifested several things, people and events in my life through this phenomenon. The mind has certainly a lot more going than being a memory bank, learning device and judgment tool. It has the power to turn ideas into reality. The word becomes flesh because of what we focus on.
One of my favorite gurus, John Assaraf, spoke about vision boards in "The Secret". I think it works well for blogs too because 90% of the wishes I posted here came to life. The 10% that didn't come true refers to the Iphone I asked for last month. The universe hotline either had a busy signal or was blocked by the signal jammers springing out everywhere to threaten the incoming automated election.
I'm getting a high listening to Anthony Robbins right now talking about rewiring one's approach towards health. The guy's gifted with the power of conviction, I wish I had the same ability. Ok, he just said to give the body a rest. Guess he knows I'm still up.
I thought of giving this blog a new look using some free templates I found on the net. Pretty neat, huh? Browsed through my entries years ago and couldn't help laughing over my stream of thoughts. If my future children and grandchildren read those posts, I'm not sure if they'd be proud of me. But somehow my sense of humor was sharper back then.
I've been reading a lot of motivational videos these past few days, mostly applying the law of attraction. I've manifested several things, people and events in my life through this phenomenon. The mind has certainly a lot more going than being a memory bank, learning device and judgment tool. It has the power to turn ideas into reality. The word becomes flesh because of what we focus on.
One of my favorite gurus, John Assaraf, spoke about vision boards in "The Secret". I think it works well for blogs too because 90% of the wishes I posted here came to life. The 10% that didn't come true refers to the Iphone I asked for last month. The universe hotline either had a busy signal or was blocked by the signal jammers springing out everywhere to threaten the incoming automated election.
I'm getting a high listening to Anthony Robbins right now talking about rewiring one's approach towards health. The guy's gifted with the power of conviction, I wish I had the same ability. Ok, he just said to give the body a rest. Guess he knows I'm still up.
Thursday, February 04, 2010
Your Ticket To A Million Dollar Career On The Internet
January 28, 2010 – WHITNEY,TX – Stephen Pierce, the Internet’s #1 wealth advocate, announces that his MRMI SuperCash system, created in 2008 to help people start their own online business, now has had almost 9,000 members sign up and is poised to reach the 10,000 member milestone this year.
“This is a significant achievement given the state of our economy today,” says Pierce. “But more importantly, it shows that people are willing to rise above their circumstances and take back control of their lives by starting learning how to make real money on the Internet.”
Members of Super Cash Are From All Walks Of Life
Many MRMI SuperCash members have never run a business before or haven’t had much computer experience. Yet here are what many current members have been able to achieve:
* Create autoblogs and then sell them for a profit.
* Drive traffic to their affiliate sites where they sell Stephen Pierce’s products and earn a commission.
* Learn multiple ways to earn money online through the Internet Marketing education provided in the weekly live webinar training.
“With SuperCash you are never alone,” says Pierce. “We provide support and the members can also interact with each other in the private forum.”
The best part about building an online income the MRMI SuperCash way is that you learn to build the foundation for passive residual income. There are no products to stock, no products to ship, no phone calls to make and no experience required.
For more information visit MRMI SUPERCASH SITE HERE
Stephen Pierce has been a celebrity in the internet marketing world the past ten years. He runs a highly successful business now, even though he was broke and homeless in the late 1990s. He has appeared on FOX News, NBC News, ABC News, CBS, DayTime, Daystar, ABC News Radio, Bloomberg Business Radio and other major network TV stations and cable shows radio programs. He also traveled around the world to explain to audiences how they, too, can make money from their homes on the internet they way Pierce has the past ten years.
Note: The blog author is an affiliate of this program
Monday, December 07, 2009
Calling The Universe
My addiction for creating videos using my laptop's video editing software just doesn't stop. I made a video on Century Bangus as an entry to Nuffnang's contest in which Iphones are up for grabs! It's a blog writing contest but I made extra efforts to make a video of it. Here's a call to the universe to make me win. Oh please, please, pretty please?
My contest entry is posted at my other blog here.
My contest entry is posted at my other blog here.
Sunday, December 06, 2009
Experimenting With Vaio Movie Story
I've been using my Sony Vaio for almost a year now but it was only yesterday when I decided to create a video using its Vaio Movie Story, a video editing tool. There are templates that are ready to use, you just have to add the pictures and videos you want to appear on the storyline and the editor will arrange the scenes. You can tweak it afterwards. I used the pics on our recent photoshoot by Bon Aserios and some video clips taken with my Nokia E71.
I am getting hooked on editing videos that I have to constantly remind myself I still have tons of things to do. Anyway, here is my first attempt at video editing using Sony Vaio:
I am getting hooked on editing videos that I have to constantly remind myself I still have tons of things to do. Anyway, here is my first attempt at video editing using Sony Vaio:
Saturday, December 05, 2009
Field of Dreams
A shot I took using my trusty Nikon D40 and kitlens. This was during our photoshoot last Saturday with photographer Bon Aserios. He edited the pic. It was a Japanese-themed pictorial in which I did the makeup for our model, Audrey.
I have another scheduled Geisha shoot and I understand my clients' fascination for such themes. Photographs featuring Japanese scenery are always so rich and colorful, which brings Akira Kurosawa's film, Dreams, to mind.
I really hope to revive my passion for photography soon. I wish I could have the 50mm lens that Bon recommended.
Here is the original version of the pic:
For more photos from the shoot, please visit http://bonaserios.com or http://vanityclinic.com
Thursday, November 26, 2009
Urduja's Lullaby
Cagayan de Oro used to pride itself for being such a safe place from natural calamities. It was the typhoon in January 2009 that heralded things were about to change.
Suddenly, streets are flooded, vehicles are stranded and people lose their homes. We are no longer a disaster-free city. Although our families' places are safely tucked, it worries me when I travel during these times. I experienced soaking my car in the highway and its automatic engine flickered. Thank God, it didn't give up totally and still safely brought us home. I made a mental note not to brave the flood next time.
Two days ago, another typhoon hit this side of the country and caused landslides in some nearby towns.The pour of the rain was mild yet steady. It went on for two days, immersing Cagayan roads in muddy water once again.
My hubby, who was on 24 hours duty, reported that the hallways of the hospital were being flooded. Outside, the water was ankle-length when he had his dinner. I remember how we feared heavy downpours at the Radiology Department because the ultrasound machine needed some rescuing each time.
I was at my brother's house looking after my niece who was down with fever. Just to make sure it wasn't dengue and so I could avoid the possible flood along the highway, I stayed for the night. I would have been a cool, restful sleep had I not been worrying when the rain would stop.
There was no AM Radio at my brother's home so I was constantly checking my phone's internet for updates but then as expected, twitter, facebook and other social networking sites are only packed with info when Manila is involved. The gentle yet treacherous sound of Urduja singing dozed me off eventually.
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Monday, November 23, 2009
Efren Penaflorida: Modern Day Hero
Another proud moment for Filipinos. Our bet to the CNN Hero of the Year, Efren Penaflorida was declared as the winner during the All Star Tribute at the Kodak Theater in Hollywood. Online votes made him the ultimate hero, besting 9 other nominees from different countries.
His advocacy to educate the street children through a pushcart was the heroic act that put him in the list of nominees of the annual CNN awards that recognizes individuals with selfless humanitarian acts from all over the world.
I personally salute him for his efforts to care for others who may be difficult to deal with. Not all children are cute. I had bad encounters with rowdy street kids but people like Efren go out of their way to reach out to them. It entails great sacrifices, patience and passion to accomplish his tasks without expecting for monetary gains. For that, he is indeed the modern-day hero that our society needs. The coveted plum has $100,000 cash reward but he will be using it to fund his organization called the Dynamic Teen Company (DTC) to continue his advocacy.
My husband and I voted for him a couple of times and we are happy that he got the recognition that he truly deserves. May his tribe increase and we hope that he can inspire more young people to make a difference. Here's hoping that the politicians running for the 2010 will not use him for their campaign and instead take from him what selfless service is all about.
Sunday, November 22, 2009
Free Spa, Anyone?
My beauty blog is holding a contest, in which a free spa treatment worth P1700 at the Terra Wellness Spa at the Discovery Suites is up for grabs.
Joining is simple, just help spread the word by blogging about the contest on your blog in at least 60 words. Mention the words "Terra Spa" and "The Doctor is vaIN," place the link of your blog entry to vanityclinic.com's post on the contest and you're on your way to winning a luxurious pampering.
Entries will be raffled and the winner will be announced on November 30, 2009.
I'm Back!

After almost a year of not updating this site, I have decided to return to the blog that started it all.
It seems almost everything I post here mobilizes the universe to give me what I want. From the ideal husband to the digital cameras, the law of attraction worked every time. Even the $8,000,0000 check I previously posted did materialize... several zeroes were lacking, though. After blogging about the "secret" check, I got a call offering an P8000 monthly deal. Well, at least it got some digits right even if the $ sign was replaced by Peso currency.
After revisiting my original home in the web, I realized that the last post was titled award-winning. Somehow, that dialed the universe hotline and made my beauty blog win at the Philippine Blog Awards.
I decided that my blog holds some power and it doesn't deserve to get abandoned.With all the emo posts I infiltrated this site before, I need to reverse its effects and bring more positive vibes to the world.
Will it be too much to ask for a perfect health? .. and wealth to come with it? Universe, I'm back so please heed my call.
Thursday, December 04, 2008
Award Winning
I have been tagged by Misakichan. Although my recent blog entries aren't as juicy as my posts the past few years, thanks for considering this blog as one of the coolest that you know. :P
Once this award is accepted, the rules are as follows:
1. Put the logo on your blog.
2. Add a link to the person who awarded you.
3. Nominate 10 other blogs.
4. Add links to those blogs on yours.
5. Leave a message for your nominees on their blogs
I have lost most of my blogging friends ever since I abandoned this blog for a while so I cannot really fill in the 10 nominees. But I'm hoping these people will take the tag:
.. hmm.. I've come to realize that I hardly have friends who are into blogging. :( As if Wu Chun would yield to my tag.
Wednesday, December 03, 2008
Globe Visibility
Our net server at home had been acting up the past week. With all the works that I'm trying to finish, it got so frustrating that I had to ask my hubby to get a globe visibility prepaid kit.
It is expensive, compared to the unlimited internet hours that we have with our regular web server. However, getting a back up in case internet connection gets messed up again is a necessity, with all the online jobs that got my hands on.
The first time I tried it, it was a dismay. With no 3G signal here at home, the connection was like going back to dial up era once again. It took too long to load, with frequent disconnections that translates to bigger bills since we pay P5 per 15 minute surfing time. Being disconnected before 15 minutes leaves you with P5 wasted each time.
On the positive side, I tried it at the school clinic this afternoon where there was a 3G signal. Amazingly, the connection was uber fast. I got to enjoy continuous youtube videos. Unfortunately, after 30 minutes or so, the connection just hanged and needed to be restarted. Oh well.
I hope the technology in mobile internet moves up really soon. Perhaps one day its glitches will be a thing of the past. People breathe internet these days. Myself included.
It is expensive, compared to the unlimited internet hours that we have with our regular web server. However, getting a back up in case internet connection gets messed up again is a necessity, with all the online jobs that got my hands on.
The first time I tried it, it was a dismay. With no 3G signal here at home, the connection was like going back to dial up era once again. It took too long to load, with frequent disconnections that translates to bigger bills since we pay P5 per 15 minute surfing time. Being disconnected before 15 minutes leaves you with P5 wasted each time.
On the positive side, I tried it at the school clinic this afternoon where there was a 3G signal. Amazingly, the connection was uber fast. I got to enjoy continuous youtube videos. Unfortunately, after 30 minutes or so, the connection just hanged and needed to be restarted. Oh well.
I hope the technology in mobile internet moves up really soon. Perhaps one day its glitches will be a thing of the past. People breathe internet these days. Myself included.
Christmas Gifts
In 22 days, it's already Christmas. I have happy memories of the season as a kid. Life was much simpler then. We used to hang stockings that were supposedly filled up with goodies from Santa Claus. I would look forward to parties, exchange gifts and noche buena (midnight meal) with the family when the clock strikes 12:00. It was time to open our presents.
Presently, I am excited about shopping for Christmas gifts. There's something about Christmas that makes you more generous. If only I had all the money to spend. But like the old saying goes, it's the thought that counts.
I am at a loss with what kids are up to these days, good thing there's shop wiki online where i could search for any toy that I hear about and browse what they look like.
My niece Xylene is fond of gundam toys. I don't really know what that is except that I saw her assembling weird looking robot figures. Caitlin is an anime freak. I might give her something that has her favorite anime characters. Chinchin is a psp addict. I could buy her a new game to install.
With this innovative idea from shop wiki, it makes it easier fo shoppers to search for any gift item they have in mind because they are guided into all possible stores that sell the stuff they want to buy. It's your portal to a convenient Christmas shopping.
Presently, I am excited about shopping for Christmas gifts. There's something about Christmas that makes you more generous. If only I had all the money to spend. But like the old saying goes, it's the thought that counts.
I am at a loss with what kids are up to these days, good thing there's shop wiki online where i could search for any toy that I hear about and browse what they look like.
My niece Xylene is fond of gundam toys. I don't really know what that is except that I saw her assembling weird looking robot figures. Caitlin is an anime freak. I might give her something that has her favorite anime characters. Chinchin is a psp addict. I could buy her a new game to install.
With this innovative idea from shop wiki, it makes it easier fo shoppers to search for any gift item they have in mind because they are guided into all possible stores that sell the stuff they want to buy. It's your portal to a convenient Christmas shopping.
Sunday, November 09, 2008
Frugal Shopping, The Key to Living Rich
Despite earning extra income from online works and side jobs, I still find myself scrimping to make ends meet. What gives?
Personally, most of my expenses go to my favorite hobby- makeup. I justify my spending spree by telling myself it's an investment. The question is when will I reap the fruits of my supposedly well-invested money? Hmm.. tough to answer.
With Christmas just around the corner, I need to save up for the expenses that will surely arise during that season. I decided to list down ideas that might hopefully help me be a wiser shopper:
1. Lay off on the credit cards. With the advent of online shopping, it takes more than the usual discipline to stop oneself from hitting the buy button. Buy now, worry later. If it means making my husband tie up my hands to prevent myself from online shopping spree, then so be it.
2. Hunt for bargains. Flea market, here I come. I would love to go shopping at places like Tutuban or Divisoria but the traffic on those places can go really crazy.
3. Allot a percentage of my salary for savings. At least 10% of my earnings should go straight to my bank account.
4. Do early Christmas shopping. Last minute shopping forces you to buy whatever is there, whatever the price.
5. Have the eye for finding great stuffs at low prices. It is possible to purchase a good product without hurting your wallet. Sometimes, the mark up goes ridiculously high because of promotional expenses and middlemen.
Speaking of eyes, there's zennioptical.com, an example of an online shop that sells stylish eyeglasses without the high cost brought about by expensive advertising. Their secret to selling their goods cheap is by offering their manufactured frames direct to the customer. Reviews I have read say that most customers are pleased with their orders from them. It was even mentioned in a book called "Living Rich by Spending Smart."
By frugal living, we can actually enjoy being rich.
Personally, most of my expenses go to my favorite hobby- makeup. I justify my spending spree by telling myself it's an investment. The question is when will I reap the fruits of my supposedly well-invested money? Hmm.. tough to answer.
With Christmas just around the corner, I need to save up for the expenses that will surely arise during that season. I decided to list down ideas that might hopefully help me be a wiser shopper:
1. Lay off on the credit cards. With the advent of online shopping, it takes more than the usual discipline to stop oneself from hitting the buy button. Buy now, worry later. If it means making my husband tie up my hands to prevent myself from online shopping spree, then so be it.
2. Hunt for bargains. Flea market, here I come. I would love to go shopping at places like Tutuban or Divisoria but the traffic on those places can go really crazy.
3. Allot a percentage of my salary for savings. At least 10% of my earnings should go straight to my bank account.
4. Do early Christmas shopping. Last minute shopping forces you to buy whatever is there, whatever the price.
5. Have the eye for finding great stuffs at low prices. It is possible to purchase a good product without hurting your wallet. Sometimes, the mark up goes ridiculously high because of promotional expenses and middlemen.
Speaking of eyes, there's zennioptical.com, an example of an online shop that sells stylish eyeglasses without the high cost brought about by expensive advertising. Their secret to selling their goods cheap is by offering their manufactured frames direct to the customer. Reviews I have read say that most customers are pleased with their orders from them. It was even mentioned in a book called "Living Rich by Spending Smart."
By frugal living, we can actually enjoy being rich.
Thursday, October 30, 2008
Gratitude Blog
I've been my usual pessimistic self in my recent posts that I forgot what I learned from watching "The Secret". Since I'm on a manic episode.. errr.. happier and relaxed state now, I decided to list the things that I am grateful for. These are simple things that made my day brighter than usual:
1. I found a new online job. I got an email today for an interview and it went well that I'm starting it on Monday. About 2 weeks ago, I applied for another job that got me excited because it was a perfect fit for my educational background. The buyer told me that she was going to hire me once her payment process is verified but I patiently waited and found out that other applicants have been hired instead. I cancelled my trip with my hubby to Manila just so I could focus on that new job, only to be left waiting for nothing. I guess this is my second wind, as another job was posted which has something to do with medicine as well. The buyer is a doctor himself, like my boss in my first online assignment who is likewise very pleasant to deal with. I trust that this will finally push through.
2. My Cargo Blu-Ray Pressed Powder arrived in the mail today. It was shipped from US and got to me in exactly 7 days, including weekends. That fast! When I tried it before heading off to work in the school clinic, it had a flawless finish that covered my skin imperfections. I couldn't keep myself from looking at the mirror every chance I could get. This product is miraculous.
3. I got a parking space in a mall where it is extremely difficult to find one. Today is an exceptionally busy day in the mall because another parking lot was occupied with booths that cars had to find any space outside the mall where they can fit in. Like a blessing that fell from the skies, an empty space showed up just in time, at the covered parking lot at that.
4. No moron encounters on the road. Just the usual idiot stuffs. Ok, no negative vibes. It was a smooth driving day.
5. I found magic chips on the grocery store. Yummy!
6. My loved ones are kept safe and in good health.
7. I learned to smile again. After being gloomy and bitchy these past few days, it was almost impossible to believe that I could smile again.
8. I found time to blog again.
Thank you Lord for all the blessings despite my dwindling faith. I can be stupid sometimes but thank you for not giving up on me and for finding me reasons to feel better about myself.
1. I found a new online job. I got an email today for an interview and it went well that I'm starting it on Monday. About 2 weeks ago, I applied for another job that got me excited because it was a perfect fit for my educational background. The buyer told me that she was going to hire me once her payment process is verified but I patiently waited and found out that other applicants have been hired instead. I cancelled my trip with my hubby to Manila just so I could focus on that new job, only to be left waiting for nothing. I guess this is my second wind, as another job was posted which has something to do with medicine as well. The buyer is a doctor himself, like my boss in my first online assignment who is likewise very pleasant to deal with. I trust that this will finally push through.
2. My Cargo Blu-Ray Pressed Powder arrived in the mail today. It was shipped from US and got to me in exactly 7 days, including weekends. That fast! When I tried it before heading off to work in the school clinic, it had a flawless finish that covered my skin imperfections. I couldn't keep myself from looking at the mirror every chance I could get. This product is miraculous.
3. I got a parking space in a mall where it is extremely difficult to find one. Today is an exceptionally busy day in the mall because another parking lot was occupied with booths that cars had to find any space outside the mall where they can fit in. Like a blessing that fell from the skies, an empty space showed up just in time, at the covered parking lot at that.
4. No moron encounters on the road. Just the usual idiot stuffs. Ok, no negative vibes. It was a smooth driving day.
5. I found magic chips on the grocery store. Yummy!
6. My loved ones are kept safe and in good health.
7. I learned to smile again. After being gloomy and bitchy these past few days, it was almost impossible to believe that I could smile again.
8. I found time to blog again.
Thank you Lord for all the blessings despite my dwindling faith. I can be stupid sometimes but thank you for not giving up on me and for finding me reasons to feel better about myself.
Friday, October 24, 2008
Alyas Girl Topak
I was described as a girl with an artistic temperament in my high school yearbook caption. I was originally pictured to dabble in different art forms but then things got lost in revision that the art in a temper became the highlight of my character which is an eloquent way to say that I have "topak" (being slightly off kilter). It was fairly accurate but definitely not the caption I want my offsprings and grandchildren to read about me. Not that I throw tantrums in public and run amok at the slightest provocation, but I do have a bad case of mood swings. I am happy one minute and then suddenly feel the world crumbling the next time.
Sometimes I do think I have manic-depressive condition, bipolar disorder, or maybe schizophrenia. But I decided to be kind to myself and be convinced that I am normal, only with occasional lapses in emotional management. I still need to grow up, seriously.
Like a few hours ago, I was ecstatically testing the new toys in the form of makeups that I asked my hubby to buy for me while he was in Manila. I was extremely happy that my hubby is back and I get to hug my living teddy once again. But now that everyone else is asleep and I'm alone to drown in my own thoughts, I once again ask myself, "what is there to live for?" I'm supposed to be grateful to be married to an extremely wonderful guy- an exceptional one who can deal with my "topak", to have a good family, to be blessed with jobs that no longer stress the hell out of me, and the chance to enjoy doing makeup for other people. How come I still feel melancholic? It seems I have to keep a regular dose of something to excite me to keep me looking forward for the future.
Maybe this is just PMS, or the annoying street kids that wouldn't keep their hands off from washing my car despite that I signaled "no" a couple of times to them. C'mon, do they really expect me to lower my window and allow the rain to get in the car just to hand them over some coins? Or maybe it's the morons who ride motorbikes who enjoy occupying the middle of the fast lane but run 40kph in the highway and won't bother to move aside to give way to other motorists. Grrr.. Sometimes I do understand what went on Rolito Go's head when he committed his crime. But then as he realizes it too late, it was not worth it.
I hate this feeling of living just for the heck of it, without the spark that makes me look forward to the next day. Like, what is there to look forward to anyway, meet more annoying people and morons on the road? I certainly have a lot of reasons to be happy more than my reasons to be upset but I guess my fear of not being happy for a longer time is what’s making me a very reluctantly happy person now. I am imprisoned by my own fears that I no longer enjoy the moments that should be celebrated. Too many uncertainties about my health, my career path, my dreams that are making me too tensed about what lies ahead. Faith is the only thing I can hold on to but sometimes it gets difficult to get a grip when it keeps slipping off.
I need something to be passionate about. I need to get a high without being low the next moment. I need positive vibes to heal my negative energies. Blah, blah, blah. My off-kilter self has taken me over once again. Maybe all I need is a good sleep for now.
Sometimes I do think I have manic-depressive condition, bipolar disorder, or maybe schizophrenia. But I decided to be kind to myself and be convinced that I am normal, only with occasional lapses in emotional management. I still need to grow up, seriously.
Like a few hours ago, I was ecstatically testing the new toys in the form of makeups that I asked my hubby to buy for me while he was in Manila. I was extremely happy that my hubby is back and I get to hug my living teddy once again. But now that everyone else is asleep and I'm alone to drown in my own thoughts, I once again ask myself, "what is there to live for?" I'm supposed to be grateful to be married to an extremely wonderful guy- an exceptional one who can deal with my "topak", to have a good family, to be blessed with jobs that no longer stress the hell out of me, and the chance to enjoy doing makeup for other people. How come I still feel melancholic? It seems I have to keep a regular dose of something to excite me to keep me looking forward for the future.
Maybe this is just PMS, or the annoying street kids that wouldn't keep their hands off from washing my car despite that I signaled "no" a couple of times to them. C'mon, do they really expect me to lower my window and allow the rain to get in the car just to hand them over some coins? Or maybe it's the morons who ride motorbikes who enjoy occupying the middle of the fast lane but run 40kph in the highway and won't bother to move aside to give way to other motorists. Grrr.. Sometimes I do understand what went on Rolito Go's head when he committed his crime. But then as he realizes it too late, it was not worth it.
I hate this feeling of living just for the heck of it, without the spark that makes me look forward to the next day. Like, what is there to look forward to anyway, meet more annoying people and morons on the road? I certainly have a lot of reasons to be happy more than my reasons to be upset but I guess my fear of not being happy for a longer time is what’s making me a very reluctantly happy person now. I am imprisoned by my own fears that I no longer enjoy the moments that should be celebrated. Too many uncertainties about my health, my career path, my dreams that are making me too tensed about what lies ahead. Faith is the only thing I can hold on to but sometimes it gets difficult to get a grip when it keeps slipping off.
I need something to be passionate about. I need to get a high without being low the next moment. I need positive vibes to heal my negative energies. Blah, blah, blah. My off-kilter self has taken me over once again. Maybe all I need is a good sleep for now.
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